today ...

I had the day off so, I got coffee & fish and chips, packed a box to ship to All My Aweome Children, watched women walk down the street while I sat and smoked on the front porch, watched a lecture section on some famouse historical geometric proofs, baked a little, worked on my meme, wrote a song about being lonely and free and sad and hopeful - and the day is only half over

I think about love
and I shrug about sex
and I sometimes wonder if the world has any use
for me anymore
and I feel like a closing door

I used to dream about
the way life could be
and worried over details
about what should be
going on
I just wanted to go home

Today, I found a little trulth
in myself concerning
my attitude towards
the inner yearnings
that I feel
all I want is something real

Reality is feeling
cool and fuzzy
and I like to think the universe
really does love me
and somewhere I'll find
someone of like mind

Just a cloudy winter day
maybe sun, tomorrow
or maybe, suddenly
change will follow
maybe Zen
I choose to choose again